No more heroin

I think i should end this blog
Because heroin is disappear from my heart

I can do anything
Just want my beloved be happy
Even thought the things i done for him will make myself feel unhappy

This kind of love way cannot last forever
My mind begins to feel tired and unbalanced

I changed all the bad habits that he dislikes
Until now
I feel i not myself anymore
No own style
No own thinking
No own freedom

And he changed too

The God
Please kindly to tell me
Am i right to love this guy?
The guy that i love is still my heroin?